My thoughts

Just my thoughts for the day.

So today has been another boring day at the office. Rather glad it’s over, trying to find ways of keeping myself occupied is a hazard in itself. I’m not being challenged enough and I’m not being given the opportunities to grow. I have found it unbearably tough to acknowledge the fact that I want to move on.

I feel like I have achieved a lot, I could go further by gaining the CFA as a qualification or I could go and do what I think I would really be passionatte about and that would be teaching. The money I know is not going to be as good. It’s something I am struggling to accept. But maybe it is the right decision for me. Maybe I just need to recognised that I am being called to do something else. This is difficult when you have put your heart and soul into something that just isn’t for you. It never really was for me and look how much it is impacting me in terms of my nature. I have become angry, resentful and bitter. My drive for money and success has inevitably left me wanting more and more and more, but never truly being satisfied.

I think the change would do me good, I think the new career would make me happier, I think it would fulfil my need to give back, embrace my more ethical centre and encourage me to be a better human being. I may be able to learn and develop myself in that environment too off my own back. I do like speaking in front of people too. Maybe that will help. I am also high energy. Maybe that will help. I will be someone who has more holiday, maybe that will help.

Careers are hard to find. And hard to enjoy. Maybe I was never built to be like the people who you see on TV, undercutting one and other and making money for mere profit. Maybe my morals line up somewhere else. Maybe that is why teaching is for me, maybe that is where I will be happier. From helping the young lad out in his career to helping out others in theirs. Maybe God is offering me another shot at becoming the person I am truly born to be.

I truly hope so, I truly do.